Tuesday, 19 July 2011

Wake up call.......

 
Wake up calls come or hit us when we’re least expecting them. We go through life wondering how the next day, hour, minute or second will bring.
Unlike plants and other objects that can be replaced, we only have a single shot at making things work for ourselves, families and those we care about.
When or where do we draw the line though when things get a bit too much or when the going gets too tough? How much can we take from those we love, those we deem “blood brothers” or relatives?
 
Who do we turn to when things take an unexpected turn? What does one do when choices are made for her/him, without any consultation or discussions?
What does one do when he/she finds himself/herself in a compromising situation, where the heart and its abilities to love, accept and forgive is pushed into dangerous terrains?
How do we end up hurting each other to a point where we forget who we fell in love with or the reason why we fell in love? How do we go from being adorable lovers, husbands, wives or family members to being vicious, cold, and inconsiderate beings driven by a yearning to satisfy our wants and egos at other’s expenses?
If tables were turned, would you enjoy the taste of the medicine you dish out?
There is a lot we can do for one other; there is a lot we can achieve by substituting selfishness with selflessness. Without a doubt, we all have been victims of circumstances at some point or so in life, we all have been in compromising situations, got out of them by sacrificing a certain percentage of our freedom, love or individualism.We react differently to certain situations, at times; the help we seek doesn’t come instantly or doesn’t come from those we most expect it from. That doesn’t mean the world would pack up and swallow you whole. Fight for what you believe in, stand for what is right, do not compromise your freedom or your happiness for something less than your worth.

 
I have come to realise and accept that I am not in control of certain things that happen in my life, that some things happen for a reason and that I might never know what the reason is till certain things have happened.
I will no longer fight for what I do not have control over. I have a greater understanding on how most young people turn to drugs, sex, alcohol abuse or end up in the streets with nothing to look forward to. I can say I understand the frustrations of being rejected by family, of relatives turning against you, of grudges from when you were a child being raised and used against you. I can say I have been through most of it, seen and felt the pain and saw deceit staring down at me with a huge smile and poisonous words seeping from a tongue so smooth. I can say I witnessed family distance itself from me, I can tell you about confessions from someone who is supposed to be a father figure and words voiced from anger coming from the one person he should be calling his wife....all that would be visiting and staying in a world with no hope of escaping from. That would be building a house in the past and calling it home. That would be rekindling the flames of hatred and agony that have been burning me alive al these years.
What I can do though is to share the very few bits of happiness I find in taking images, what I can do is share my hopes and dreams with you, help you realise having a positive outlook in life helps with eradicating bad thoughts and negative energies. I can tell you to focus on what makes you happy and use that to keep your sanity.
I can tell you I could be of assistant and avail myself even though we have never met. I can be the stranger God could have sent to give you a helping hand. I can be everything I dream of becoming....only if I allow myself to let go of:
  1. Pride
  2. Pain
  3. Prejudice
  4. Procrastination
  5. Fear
I urge you to do likewise, invest in yourself, invest in retaining and preserving the good nature you were born with.
The first emotion we ever knew before everything else was that of love. The first act we got exposed to from childhood was that of protection. Remind yourself how life was before life happened and try work towards building similar conditions and share them.
Never give up on yourself, don't let temporal setbacks kill your love for life.

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

When I'm all grey and wrinkled

The day I grow old…..when my head’s all grey and eyes blurry...
will I be remembered for the good I did, the humanity I showed or the pride I showed with each step I took, prancing like a horse on show,parading my ego and self importance?
The day I grow old, what memories of self would I have, all the blunders I made, will they come back to haunt me?
All the chances I lost out on, will they come back to taunt my mind with “what if’s” and “I wonder where I would’ve been if I had went along and took that risk”.
The day I grow old……would my grand children watch me wither in solitude like a fallen leaf blown into a slow flowing stream?
Will my own flesh and blood resent me for the anger, harshness and negligence?
The day I grow old, what would I have left in this world apart from memories of times we partied till the sun came up, drank till we passed out, only to remember less of the drinking spree or the people we drank with…..?
What legacy am I suppose to leave behind if I have never been introduced to one?
What moral values am I suppose to pass on, do I even know what those are when I am still content with pointing out defects on those I call friends and family?
The day I grow old….,and find myself empty and shallow would,be the day I acknowledge I have lived one too many hours without realizing my worth and potential.