Do i still know the person I once knew

The person I use to be wasn’t what I see in the mirror today.

The person I use to be wasn’t so lazy or pitiful of himself, he wasn’t so less focused on what he once wanted, let alone easily dismayed by failed first attempts.

The person I once knew had the same name as the one I currently see in the mirror, had pride just like the next fool boasting about his meager temporally achievements to a blind man who’s understanding of the financial world is as big and popular as sand to an Eskimo and grazing land to a Hottentot.

The person I once knew, lost himself on his way from home to a world unknown, full of promises and bright lights, beautiful women and fiery intoxicating water.

The person I once knew was no different from the person I once was, all humble and respectful, dedicated and motivated but never introduced to opportunity nor ever bumped onto understanding.

The person I once knew thought OPPORTUNITY was reserved only for those with Degrees, Diplomas and Doctorates, forgetting he has hands, strong shoulders and a dream.

The person I once knew deprived himself of one too many an opportunity and a shot at making his dreams a reality that he  now can’t tell the difference between being optimistic and living in a fantasy world.

The person I once knew, had dreams, ambitions and wishes, and he gave up on all of them.....just like the person I have become.

Having a dream is a good thing, following your dream is even better, but understanding the fundamentals and basics of how your idea/dream or vision works is the key to a living your dream.

Sithembile Cleaopas Ngcobo

Born in Pietermaritzburg to Linda Mbelu and Sipho Ngcobo

Aspirering Photographer

What am I protecting

What am I protecting…….a lot comes to mind whenever I ask myself this and other similar questions. A lot remains unanswered, shoved back to the metronome of my mind. A lot gets obscured and tainted by the immediate satisfaction of the mind and the physical.

Less tend to argue with their subconscious self, let alone reason before acting.  One a many of us have regrets we choose not to amend, let alone learn from.

I ask again, what is it that I am protecting, with all the spikes, barbed wire, high rising fences and barricades of concrete around my house, heart and mind.

If all I see be materialistic, why protect it if it’ll be lost with each new trend? If a house is only made a home by what is within my chest, why entertain thoughts more than feelings.

What am I protecting if I fail to realize that the fears I got can be used as fuel to further my goals and dreams? A friend wrote: “There is certainly an improvement in the quality of life once you’re aware of things that really matter to you”…….Is pride one of those things, is constant comparison one of those things, is regret suppose to be in that list?

What is it that I am protecting with all these defensive systems I fail to utilize to further or improve my life?

Am I in staying because of my kids, reputation, financial security or protecting those older or younger than me? What exactly am I protecting with all these efforts I make which never seem to bring me any comfort or peace of mind?

There is a lot to life than what meets the eye…….protect that which advances you and alters and brings  your life towards realizing your dreams.