Trouble finding peace.....trapped in a stagnant pool of Self pity.

For years, we restrict our growth through self pity, remorse and holding on to the past as if feeling down and sorry for one will make amends for what has been said and done.

For years we live in hope of acceptance, affection and a sense of belonging when we know we aren’t remotely alike the people we try to get approval from.

Who said life should be given a stamp of approval by cynic critics, or those who have failed in their own rights to make something worthy of their lives when they were given a chance to do so?

So what if you do not belong to a certain clan, so what if you were born out of wedlock or if you do not come from a wealthy family.

Do you even know your worth to sell yourself short all the time?

Do you know what you can be if you’d stop whining and moaning about what people say about you, feel about you or think about you, what you do not have, endless financial woes you avert by a whisk of a hair every month end?

What will it take for you to wake up and realize that you owe it to yourself to be happy and live life without any limitations or restrictions from people who’ve infested your mind with the same mentality and way of thinking everythin in life is IMPOSSIBLE?

You got the ability to turn everythin you touch into gold, you have an eye for detail, you give sound advice yet you are restricted by pity and grief.

You are gifted beyond your own belief, beyond your family’s acceptance, beyond your colleague’s doubts yet you tell yourself you do not have what it takes to crack it in life….!!

What more would you want, what more signs do you need in order for you to trust in yourself and shine?

How long will it take you before you can believe that you’re more capable of doing greater things only if you could take the first step towards realizing your own potential?

It took harsh words to make me realize I do not stand a chance at undoing the hands of time or changing history.

It cost me a great deal of pain and time to realize I should always put myself first in life.

It took my father years of living with shame for allowing his only son to suffer shamelessly in the hands of his sisters.

The people we call family could be the ones that hurts us the most, the only ones who can plant that seed of doubt, which will not only unsettles us but also gives us a false impression of others we might need in future who might display similar traits or characteristics as them, yet have different motives and intentions.

The most important thing in life is family right; at what price are you willing to belong to one?

How much suffering are you prepared to endure all in the name of keeping your surname alive?

“Blood is thicker than water” they say, but blood was never meant to be shed in the first place and water is one vital source of sustaining your blood flow…..pollute any of the two and you will find yourself living in vile conditions, full of contaminated hearts, minds, intentions and motives.

Allow yourself to be subdued and made to believe it’ll be better one day, and you will find yourself stuck fishing for fish in a pond infested with tadpoles…once they’ve evolved an turned into fully grown frogs, it’d be too late for you to turn back the hands of time and get your fat worm/bait you used feeding them.

We invest our time tryin to make things work while some concentrate on reminding us our efforts are futile to what they have set their minds on labeling you as.

We invest our time tryin to keep it together, hiding our parent’s shame and guilt, fighting their shrewd battles for them and look beyond their greedy ways, only to be let down at the end, by then, turning back the hands of time is impossible.

We invest our efforts and make sacrifices, all in the name of keeping it together, only to realize our selfless act do not par to the selfishness of those we want approval of even though we do not need it.

Such can be an example of how a good soul can be restricted from blossoming into an icon of admiration.

Such is how someone’s life can remain stagnant for years, losing it’s value and purpose while tryin to satisfy everybody’s selfish needs.

Such is another example of how one can be led to believe he/she can only be as good as what others say he/she can be, forgetting his/her abilities go beyond the next person’s ones.

Invest more in yourself

Listen more to your friends who have been there for you in times of hardships.

Take time to redefine yourself, your goals and your tomorrow.

Learn to let go of dead weight, it will only weigh you down and drag you under long before your time has come.

Learn to be harsh to those you love, words spoken from the heart aren’t meant to be destructive, no matter how bitter they sound, they are more constructive than destructive,

(Only if your mind is not stuck in a stagnant state of shallowness, bitterness, self pity or regret.)

You can only do so much for those you love, it’s up to them to live their lives, not through you, and you can not live their lives for them.

Put yourself first at all times, don’t’ be selfish with your love to those who need it more than they “want” or demand it.

Don’t be selfish with your sound advices to those you see heading for a dead end.

Do not feel sorry for being harsh to those you hold dear in your life whom you see embarking on a journey of self destruction.

Do not apologize for doing the right thing, if the next person doesn’t like it and if his/her ways will cost you your happiness and tax your pocket and emotions, why do it?

Why please those who can’t please themselves or who can not be satisfied with any good you exude?

Why allow yourself to be used as a door mat everytime when you know you are worth more than that and you deserve more than to be left out in the cold after serving your job as a mat, wiping mud off their shoes…?

You only live once, this is no dress rehearsal; you reap what you saw only if you can recognize what you have to saw in the first place.

Know your worth and share your worth with those who share the same sentiments with you and have similar ambitions as yourself.

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